I hate everything about myself. I can’t be normal or keep my mouth shut. I can’t please everyone but I desperately want to. I want to be thinner. Prettier. Smarter. Accepted.
Why can’t I be normal? Why is it that the things in my head and my feelings scare those I love? Will I never be able to be honest? Will I be a prisoner in my own and head and body? Will I ever be able to figure out what is wrong with me? Will I ever truly have someone that accepts me for who I truly am or just what I show them?
will Ana ever leave me alone…or will she forever have a hold on me? I just want to be OK. Happy. Normal.
Is that too much to ask for?